Taking a step back to step forward
Georges St-Pierre goes...
“the fight is 10% physical, 90% mental”
But I wasn’t grunting at the amount of physical exertion. I was greeting my teeth as I played a mental game of table tennis forcing myself to not over do it, whilst having the frustration of wanting to work hard. This sounds like a bit of a joke right? It's if I am going out of my way to make sure I don’t
exercise too much. Well I am, not even kidding. It is so hard when you feel like you have energy at that moment to keep going and that you have more in you but you know that it is not the best thing to do. For me today was the first day of understanding and trying to respect my body for where it is at the moment and focusing real hard on letting the words 'AT THE MOMENT' sink in....I am not where I once was and not where I will be. Mmmmm deep.
Over the years I have been experiencing what I guess you could call a form of adrenal fatigue/dysfunction/cortisol dysregulation......AKA my hormones fucked and my metabolism is all over the place.
These are just some of the things I experience almost daily:
- extreme energy crashes
- endless fatigue
- migraine like symptoms every other week
- irregular appetite
- brain fog and concentration problems
- depression and lack of motivation for life
- digestive issues
Oh, and I haven’t had a period in over 6 years with no clear explanation.
Lately, things have gotten worse. When you struggle managing your cortisol levels (the hormone that is released when we experience an overly stressing situation, or these days even a mildly stressing one) then this can have a cascading effect throughout your body and entire system. I am not going to go into all of the details of cortisol’s role and interactions in the body because I don't want to turn this into a big information session. Aaaaaaand you can probably just Google it right? I just want to tell you my story and share with you how I go along the way. A bit of a sneaky peek into my life and what I am experiencing, because we all generally love stalking peoples lives. That is why we love social media. LOL! But on a serious note, you might resonate with this and choose to find out a little bit more for yourself and to explore your own health while I continue to explore mine.
Anyone that has an issue with their adrenal glands (and essentially their hormones) or managing the stress on their body may find that any form of extreme physical, mental or emotional exertion can push you over the edge. This can depend on what level you are at and how depleted your system or overworked your system is. Over the last month or so I have experienced lots of these exertions. So I have begun to rely more on stimulants such as coffee (1 a week has always been my limit but slowly 2 and 3 have crept in), chocolate (or should I say cacao because I literally eat it with just coconut oil!) and needing a pick me up from exercise. And trying to get the highs from any of these things have become harder and harder to achieve. The 'feel goods' are not lasting as long and have much bigger come downs. I have now been gaining weight like a champ all of a sudden day by day and I have been feeling lots more niggles and pains in my body. And after drowning in what felt like a black hole this week, it is clear that something has got to give. And as Einstein said.....
“the definition of insanity is doing the same thing over and over again and expecting a different result”
So I am making some changes. After doing lots of nerdy research and speaking with my angel acupuncturist these are the things that I will be focusing on and tweaking as I explore what my own boundaries are:
- Focusing again on a more gut healing diet and creating my own diet with a combination of Kale Brock's Gut Healing Protocol and Dr Axe's Leaky Gut Treatment (both of which I have done before) and therefore be minimising foods that I already know put a strain on my body.
- Eating much smaller meals but more frequently (every 2-3 hours) giving myself an easy, constant flow of energy without placing strain on my digestive system to break down a large meal. This puts unnecessary strain on your spleen, kidneys and inevitably your liver according to Chinese Medicine.
- Returning and revisiting my yoga practice. I have always done yoga at least 1 to 2 times a week but this will now make up the core of my movement for a while. Focusing on improving my form, learning about muscle groups and strengthening my mind, soul and of course my body. Not only is it calming for the nervous system, it also releases built up negative emotional energy that is living in your muscles which can make us tired, stressed and unwell. It is mentally and physically challenging but also liberating. When you realise that your body can move in such a way, and you discover muscles that you didn't even know existed, you are then able to move, stretch and balance with strength that you didn't know you had. It makes you feel strong and powerful. I am basically going to be able to balance on one arm whilst doing the splits. Shit' gonna get real.
- Exploring and identifying my edge when it comes my exercise routine and diet. Not over doing it!!
- Eat more mindfully and not eating watching or listening to anything other than myself.
- Continue with my increasing meditation practice. I have been just doing quick little guided meditations on youtube.com either at night that include calming and relaxation or positive affirmations as I go to sleep. Or in the morning something to pep me up and feel positive about the day if I feel a lil off centre the second I wake. And I can tell straight away how my mental state is!!!
- Aim for the same bed time and get up the same time in morning as many times during the week as possible, even weekends. Sleep is a huuuuuuuge focus when experiencing any form of adrenal problems and made a big difference in the past. (I wrote about this stuff in my 'AutoAuto 'Mel' ography )
It might seem like a lot, and I always encourage anyone else that I am helping to make changes to not make big drastic overwhelming goals . That is an epic way to make things too hard to stick to which then just increases the possibility of not achieving what you hoped. But almost all of these things are things I already do but just need some tweaking and adjusting. I am hoping to view it as an experiment that I will continue to share!!!! It's like a sling shot. You need to pull back to propel it forward right?
Thanks heaps for reading and wish me luck!!! Whoop! xxxxxx